Day 54 - Loving Who I Am

Hello lovelies!
I hope you are all having a splendid day so far!
So yesterday went okay.
Went swimming with my twin sister in the afternoon, that was fun.
Went over my calorie target yesterday, that was definitely NOT fun.
I have issues with loving myself physically.
I like the non physical aspects of myself, like my personality and talents, but I always doubt myself.
I doubt myself a lot.
Probably because I am a perfectionist.
But I absolutely HATE all of the physical aspects of myself.
I can find something wrong with every single bit.
My fingernails? Too short.
My fingers? Too fat and stubby.
My wrists? Not small enough.
My arms? Not toned enough.
My boobs? Not big enough.
My stomach? Way too flabby.
My thighs? Uh, can you say THUNDER THIGHS?
My calves? Ugh, they look like a man's.
My toes? SO unattractive.
So there is my body con list.
Cheers.
I am working on trying to love myself physically, but it is so hard to when I am overweight like this.
The plan is that by the time I hit my goal weight, I will have gotten to that point.
We shall see what happens.
We might be going out to eat tonight, so guess who is saving up their calories, once again.
And watch, I will plan and plan and I will STILL go over!
Because that is what happens to me, with my luck.
Sigh.
Oh, well.
Time to go start the day and be productive, at least a bit. :)
Hope you all have a wonderful day!
Hang in there and stay strong lovelies! <3

Food:
- 1 ham and cheddar Lean Pocket (+270 calories)
- 1 grilled chicken sandwich (+404 calories)
- 1 order Cajun French fries (+537 calories)
Total: 1,211/1,320 calories

Exercise: walking/jogging laps in the pool {100} [51 mins]

Water: 36/74 fl. oz.

I am trying to, I really am, I swear... <3