Survey #1
Size: 12, maybe a 10 now (US)
Age: 21
Highest Weight: 180 lbs.
Lowest Weight: 120 lbs.
Goal Weight: 95 lbs.
Favorite Diet Food?
Crackers, broccoli, Jell-O
Favorite Binge Food?
Pizza or chocolate of any sort.
Favorite Exercise?
Swimming, walking, crunches, weights
Thinspo?
Real girl is my favorite.
What Makes You Slip Up?
Eating with other people, or being on my period.
What Makes You Strong?
When I see that I have lost weight, I am motivated to keep on going.
When Did It Start?
During my high school years.
Does Anyone Know?
A few people IRL (my boyfriend, and my two best friends) and obviously everyone here.
Do You Want Help?
I am not broken, so why try to fix me?
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?
It depends on my mood, but I try to eat at least 1,000 every day.
What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?
Progress. A lot of progress. But still parts that make me say, "Ew."
Are You In A Relationship?
Yes, and happily so, thank you.
Is It For Attention?
No, I want to be healthier!
Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?
I used to be the average one in my group of friends at my highest weight, but I think I might be on the thinner side with how I am now. :)
Are You Depressed?
I used to be, but I am not anymore.
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?
Yes, when I was 16.
Ever Been To A Psychologist?
Yep, when I was in high school.
Are You On Any Medication?
For my stupid under-active thyroid, yes.
I AM -
[ ] anorexic
[x] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[ ] under 100lbs
[ ] starving myself
[ ] participating in a fast
[ ] vegan
PEOPLE -
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[ ] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
[x] have tried to stop me
I WISH -
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[ ] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[ ] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was prettier
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia
[ ] I had a boy/girlfriend
[ ] I could disappear
I LOVE -
[ ] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[ ] shaking
[ ] being weak (but strong at the same time)
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[ ] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
I HATE -
[ ] when people stare
[x] being asked questions
[x] having to eat [in front of other people]
[ ] being single
[x] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[ ] fat people
I NEED -
[x] more support
[ ] people to stay out of my business
[ ] more friends
[x] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[ ] a gym membership
[x] to lose 50 lbs
[ ] to lose 30 lbs
[ ] to lose 10lbs
Survey #2
*The Basics*
Name: Princess Perfection
Sex: Female
Birthday: February 15, 1990
Age: 21
Location: Midwestern U.S.
Hair Color: Strawberry blonde.
Eye Color: Green.
*My Eating Disorder*
What Eating Disorders Do You Have: I have ED-NOS.
How Long Have You Had Them: Since high school.
Why Do You Have An Eating Disorder: I want my health back.
Are You Proud or Ashamed of Your Eating Disorder: Neither, really, it is just sort of there.
Do People Know About Your Eating Disorder: A few, yes.
Do You Wish People Knew About it: No, I do not.
Do You Wish You Never Had An Eating Disorder: Some days I do.
Do You Think The Media is Partially Responsible For Your Eating Disorder: Meh, I am ambivalent about the media's role in all of this.
*My Body*
Weight Before Eating Disorder: 180 lbs. at my highest.
Height: 4'11"
Current Weight: 143 lbs.
Highest Weight: 180 lbs.
Are You Tired A Lot: Sometimes, yes.
Have You Ever Fainted: No.
Are You Cold All The Time: I am, actually.
Do Your Ribs Show: No.
Do Your Hipbones Show: No.
Does Your Collar Bone Show: Slightly, yes.
Can You See Your Ribs Through Your Back: No.
Do Your Thighs Touch: Yes, and it is disgusting.
Chest Size: Between 36 and 38".
Does Your Head Look Too Big For Your Body: Quite the opposite. I think my head looks tiny in comparison to the rest of me.
Are You Satisfied With The Way You Look Now: No, I am not.
If You Could, What Would You Change About Yourself: I want a flat stomach, hipbones, collarbones, and thighs that do not touch.
What Is Your B.M.I.: My current BMI is 29. At my highest, it was 36.3, and once I hit goal weight, it will be 19.1.
What Do The Doctors Say is Your Ideal Weight: A doctor has never specifically told me, but going by BMI, it would be between 92 and 123 pounds.
What Do You Think Is Your Ideal Weight: My goal weight, because it is neither overweight, nor underweight.
*My Thinspirations*
Who Are Your Thinspirations: Everyone thinner than me, haha!
Who is Your Favorite Thinspiration: Jayma Mays. [she plays Emma Pillsbury on GLEE, the TV show.]
Who is Your Second Favorite Thinspiration: Tatiana Moxey. [she was on the UK show "Supersize vs. Superskinny", the pilot episode.]
Why Do You Envy Them: Because they are thin.
What's The Best Thing About Them: Their legs, their arms, their waists.
What's The Worst Thing About Them: They are celebrities and therefore looking like them is unrealistic.
Would You Trade Places With Them If You Could: No, I would not.
*My Mind*
Do You Consider Your Eating Disorder a 'Disorder': Not really.
Are You Pro-Ana/Pro-Mia: I am supportive of my own understanding of these phrases. To me, "pro-ana" and "pro-mia" are terms used to describe someone who is happy with their disorder and encourages others to stay strong with theirs.
Would You Ever Want Your Best Friend To Have An Eating Disorder: No, I would not.
What Are Your Disordered Eating Habits: Trying to only eat servings under 100 calories of things, cutting my food into small bits, only eating half of what everyone else eats, drinking water between bites of food, drinking tons of water before a meal so I do not eat as much, having to be the last one to finish a meal.
Are You Obsessive Compulsive: About specific things, yes.
Are You A Perfectionist: YES, hence my blogger name.
Do You Have Depression: I used to, but I do not anymore.
Are You A Cutter: No.
Have You Ever Been Suicidal: Yes.
Have You Ever Attempted Suicide: Yes.
Have You Ever Been Hospitalized For Mental Reasons: Yes.
Have You Ever Been Hospitalized For Your Eating Disorder: No.
Do You Have Body Dismorphic Disorder: No.
*Your Life Outside Your Disorder*
Favorite Color: Black and pink, in that order.
Favorite Movie: I have too many to name just one.
Favorite Book: Until Tuesday: A Wounded Warrior and the Golden Retriever Who Saved Him.
Favorite T.V. Show: GLEE, The Voice.
Favorite Season: Springtime.
Favorite Day of The Week: Friday.
Favorite Time Of Day: Twilight.
Favorite Holiday: Christmas.
Favorite Hobby: Singing.
Favorite Actors: I do not really have a favorite.
Favorite Actresses: Katherine Heigl and Brittany Murphy (R.I.P.)
Favorite Musician: Too many to pick just one.
Do You Have Any Pets: Three dogs, a cat, and some fish.
What Do You Like To Do In Your Spare Time: Blog, sing, read, listen to music, or watch TV.
*The Future*
What Do You Want To Study In College: I am an Intervention Specialist major with a minor in Psychology.
What Career Do You Want: K-12 Intervention Specialist.
Do You Ever Want To Get Married: Yes, and I have a feeling I will.
Do You Ever Want Kids: Yes. One, maybe two.
Where Do You Want To Live: Wherever I get a job!
Will You Have Any Pets: Oh, for sure!
What Type of House Do You Want: Whatever I can afford, haha!
What Goals Do You Have That Are Unrelated To Your Eating Disorder: To graduate college, get married, have a stable job that turns into a stable career, and start a family.
What's Your Number One Priority: My friends and family.
How Do You Think You Will Die: I have absolutely no clue.
When Do You Think You WIll Die: See above answer.
Will You Be Missed By Anyone: I am sure I will.
Will You Have Any Regrets: No, I will not.
Will You Have Any Unfinished Business: Hopefully not.
Will Your Eating Disorder Still Affect You: I really hope not.
