Hoping this finds you having a fantastic Wednesday.
The week is half over, once again.
I move back to university in 4 and a half weeks' time.
Scary.
Although, this is not my last summer of freedom before the "real world".
Next summer is, haha.
I am noticing that I still have some little demons in my head.
Battling me.
It is unsettling, but I still have a handle on it.
You know those demons.
The ones that tell you that you should not eat certain foods because they will make you fat.
The ones that tell you that weighing yourself early will not kill you.
The ones that tell you to do another 100 crunches because the 500 you have already done are not enough.
And, most importantly, the ones that tell you that even though you have lost bunches of weight already, you are still fat and there is still room for improvement.
Do the rest of you have these demons in your head? What do yours say to you?
My turn signal thingy bob that I wanted came yesterday, which was totally cool.
I think my car MIGHT be back in my driveway, 'cause I heard commotion outside earlier.
Woohoo!
My boy comes tomorrow.
I am super freakin' excited!
He just texted to say we will not be able to go out anywhere when he gets here because of his budget, and I said, "Seriously? You really think I care if we go anywhere? I just want to frickin' see you! IT HAS BEEN THREE MONTHS."
I cannot waaaaaaaaaitttttttt. :D
He says he has presents for me.
Oh, gosh, presents?
Cheers!
I like nice things!
Haha!
I need to find something to do today.
Hm, the possibilities. :)
Hope you lovelies all have an absolutely wonderful day; you deserve to!
Stay positive, stay beautiful! <3
Food
Lunch [1:45 pm]
- 1/4 cup chocolate & nut trail mix (173 calories)
- 1/2 a chicken & jalapeno cheddar pretzel bread Lean Pocket (140 calories)
Dinner [6:00 pm]
- 1 hot dog bun (120 calories)
- 1 hot dog (170 calories)
- 1/4 cup coney sauce (340 calories)
- 1 ear corn (83 calories)
Total: 1,026 calories
She is so beautiful. I want to be that one day. <3
You sound like you are having an amazingly positive morning! :)
ReplyDeleteHave fun with your beau tomorrow ^_^
ReplyDeleteAwh, have fun with him tomorrow. :D
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'Life' is just the short name for what it really is, 'everyday demon management'!
ReplyDeleteThis is what I'm up against:
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A bit over dramatic, but it saves me the hassle of typing it all out and clogging up your comment box!
Hope you have heaps of fun with the boyf. Love you. <3. XXX.
I hope you have an amzing time with your boyfriend, the best kind of fun is free :D.
ReplyDeleteMy voices tell me to eat constantly, I wish they could be more along the lines off "you dont need that".
Stay strong!
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Such a positive morning! <3
ReplyDeleteI am trying to regain my own positivity. The voices are merely allowing me to feel light today, as I've not eaten anything to prove otherwise, and they usually simply scream when I make a food choice.
"You may have done better."
"Even if not biologically possible, all that ice cream is smearing like syrup in your hips. Can you feel it?"
"Do you feel happy now that you've eaten another piece of bread?"
"Is it worth it?"
"Just have another cup of coffee, it will be alright."
"Will anyone want to hold you right about now?"
"Do you want to hold yourself? No...? Is it because you can feel every piece of flesh?" The last one means much to me as I do wrap my arms around myself in attempts of comfort, yet I hate the feel of the disgusting fat that lurks above my skin, almost mocking me about not being able to embrace my full self.
<3 I think that just the silent existence of the fat is the worst demon of all.
May you have a beautiful, beautiful day.
Mostly mine are about eating anything right before bed (even 1 oreo), sneaking bites of food at work, putting real sugar in anything, and that the thigh gap isn't big enough. I love presents from guys! Haha
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