Good morning, my lovelies.
I am up super early today, partly because I cannot sleep, and partly because my lovely boyfriend decided he was coming to retrieve me at freaking 8 am this morning to kidnap me for the day.
I love him, but 8 am?!
Seriously?
Ugh, that boy.
At least it will get me out of here and keep my mind off how awful yesterday was.
I am still kind of upset about it, but I can only move on from it and do that much better today.
I swear, I am kicking it into overdrive, for real.
No more binge days, no more days without exercise, and no more days of feeling fat and lazy.
From now on, the only thing I am going to feel is fit and as the butterfly inside the chrysalis, changing into something beautiful.
I hope we can all feel that way.
I think that keeping myself adequately hydrated will help a lot.
I am supposed to drink half my body weight in water.
Ugh, not looking forward to it, as I am not partial to the taste of water, and never have been, but you know, gotta do whatever it takes in my pursuit to be thin, beautiful, fit, and the very best I can be.
Food = enemy.
Water = friend.
For the most part, anyway.
I told my boyfriend's mom about my eating disorder yesterday, because I knew it would come out eventually.
It was really hard, considering the daughter she lost to anorexia, but I feel better that she knows about it now.
Of course, she was all like, "You should go see our counselor, I think she could really help you!"
But we all know I am not partial to therapists as far as discussing my eating disorder, so there's a good chance that will never happen.
It makes me feel kind of bad, but the more people that know, the less control I have.
And that control is NOT something I relinquish easily.
Off to get ready for the day and begin my quest, once again, for adequate hydration and perfection!
I am all caught up on blogs, as of now, but I am sure that by the time I return home, you lovelies will have more posts for me to comment on!
And that, I am excited for. :)
Stay positive, stay beautiful! <3
This could not be more true for me today... <3
I love reading your blog, you seem so positive and optimistic and it is contagious.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your day with your boyfriend,
Much lovexxx
Aww <3
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a wonderful day beautiful!
We will all get thin together!
dear Kurt,
ReplyDelete8 FUCKING AM.
it better not be Chandlerrrr. eh. eh?!
<3 Gosh, I love you.
awe, babe, don't feel so bad about it. today's a new day, right? <3
today i am feeling empty and if i see the bathroom again, i will kill someone. just not you. i loveeeeeee you.
oh my God. xD. you...you actually do drink half your body weight?
i do too.
in diet Pepsi and coffee.
bad Blainey.
this is why my tummy is never flat. i actually do box and it sucks Hell. my arms always hurt. IT DOES NOT FLATTEN MY TUMMY WHY
i know what you mean about the control bit. ever since P knew about it, Gosh, it killed.
<33 ILL MISS YOU. HAVE A GOOD DAY.
and tell him to give you a kiss for meeeee. ;)
you are lovely surrender,
my sweet contender,
and the one whose from the start
had my beating, bleeding heart.
<3
Love x courage,
Blaine.
8 in the morning.. I didn't know there was one of those on the days off heheh
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your day with the bf :)
<3
Hey, I'm Emma. I think your blog is great, and I'm really looking forward to keeping up with it in the future. The amount of progress you've made is inspiring!
ReplyDeleteAnyway, enjoy your day with your boyfriend. :) Have fun!
Aww, the boy sounds amazing :).
ReplyDeleteHey hun,
ReplyDeleteDo you have crystal light where you're from? I'm not sure if you have your location on your blog, but I haven't seen it.. Anyway, crystal light is my LIFE SAVER! I HATE the taste of water too (people are always like, 'but it doesn't take of anything!' and I'm like, 'exactly!' lol).. so I get these little flavour sachets, you can get them for 0 cals, 0 carbs, 0 fat, amazing! I've only found 0 cals in presidents choice brand (canada), crystal light is 5, per 500ml of water, but I use one sachet for 3x 500ml, because it's too strong for me if I use the whole thing anyway.. so 5 cals for 1500 ml! Or none, if they have my flavour of PC brand! Lol.. I'm rambling! Just thought I'd let you know about those... also, you could just try buying flavoured water, if you can't get crystal light, more expensive than water from the tap, or britta filter, but worth it if it makes you drink more, eh?
Ok! Time to stop boring you now! Lol x