Hope you all are doing well.
Why do I hate the weekend?
Because on the weekend, I binge like a pig.
I cannot keep doing this.
I can feel myself getting heavier, and I hate it.
So I have decided to eat half the calories of my BMR, which is 1462.
Therefore, my new calorie target during the day is 731.
Seems like a reasonable number to me.
And then, as I continue to lose, I will adjust the number accordingly.
Add in drinking the amount of water I am supposed to, which is 73 oz daily, and I should be set.
Oh, and exercising.
At least once a day, if not more!
I am reading Wintergirls, yet again.
I love Lia.
I would much rather be Lia than Cassie, considering the disastrous results of my latest purging efforts.
Lia's BMI is like 16.4.
I could never get that low, but I am thinking of going back to my original goal weight of 93 lbs.
Right there on the brink of underweight.
It should be perfect.
We shall see.
I need to get to my healthy weight before I even think about getting to 93.
Someday, I will achieve it.
We will all achieve our goals.
We can do this!
Hang in there, my lovelies.
Stay positive, stay beautiful. <3
Nice plan :) good luck with it!
ReplyDeleteI love wintergirls! I'm part way through wasted too, but I haven't had time to finish it - I might reread witnergirls instead :P
Lottie x
Sounds like a great plan hun! Good luck! and omg just 2 days ago I was reading Wintergirls too! such a good book...I always cry about cassie for some reason (I guess me being bulimic i feel more relateable to her?) either case stay strong<3 much love!
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ReplyDeletethis blog looks so eloquent now.
amen, sweetie. and i was binging like Hell too. the thing is i don't feel myself getting heavier. still, the guilt weighs like all of my fuck-ups too. too thick, too condensed, too deadly.
731 is a beautiful number. <3
we can do it all, babe.
your motivation speaks out words that i cannot.
<3
Love x courage,
Blaine.
Weekends are binge fests for me too.
ReplyDeleteSunday is my worst day. I think it's because I have more time on my hands.
I love Wintergirls and can identify with Lia a lot. Such a sad story.
Hope you are well,
Much lovexxx
Somehow this blog resembles wintergirls to me xD. I mean it's really a first thing that came into my mind when I opened this today. Love the book too and just thought to read it again.
ReplyDeleteWeekends are a bitch, but there's a whole week to make it up before trying not to relapse again.
Stay positive <3
GL with the new plan love - just make sure that you aren't eating to few calories.. It does normally result in a bad binge :(
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OMG I do that too!! Binge like the world is ending on weekends. :( Definitely remember to keep hydrating. Sometimes it helps with the bingeing, if you crave something and drink a ton of water first then it really helps when it's those times that your brain is confusing thirst with "hunger". Anyway, I hope things are going well and that you are ok.
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