I hope that any of you who are mothers out there had a fantastic day, and that you all made sure your mother had the Mother's Day they deserve. :)
This eating stuff is getting me down.
I have my "normal" days, and my not-so-normal ones.
Is it sad that I hate my "normal" days and am almost giddy on my not-so-normal ones?
It is like, the less I eat, the happier I feel.
And I am seeing a pattern.
My not-so-normal days are always during the week, while my normal days are on the weekends when I am around my family 24/7.
Sigh.
I kinda hate having normal days.
I just want to lose this weight and become perfect.
And it is not happening fast enough. :(
Bleh.
Going to the mall is always a cause for self-examination.
I am always doing body comparisons with the girls that walk past me.
And they are ALWAYS thinner than I am.
It is so depressing.
I cannot wait for the day when I am on par with those girls.
I have this vision in my head of how I want to/will look when I hit goal.
I will get there.
It is just going to take longer than I thought, because I have zero self-control when I am around my family.
It is like one huge binge when I am with them.
Everything looks amazing, so I have to eat it.
I would much rather restrict than binge.
I do not know why I cannot do that all the time.
Eventually, I will get to where I want to be.
We all will.
We just have to keep our goals in sight.
We can do this!
Stay positive, stay beautiful. <3
This is so inspiring to me, because that right there is my goal weight, and I can only hope I look that amazing! <3
We'll get there:)
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel =/
I can restrict when I am alone, but dh and my family always makes me eat more.
I hope you have a great week <3
god ur amazing! I cant believe uve already lost 35lbs! Thats crazy! Ur such an inspiration sweetie! Trust me u r SO gonna reach ur goals! and it will be THOSE girls envying u! I think generally when I'm hungry food looks more appealing. So filling up on like fruits and veggies or broth or something b4 u go to those events will make u less hungry:) Stay strong<3 and thank u SO much for all ur lovely and encouraging comments!
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Gosh. parents. Burt/Carole/Finn should stop stuffing you so much. ;) I love to stuff you more. <3 With lurveeeeee (and other bodily things).
Babe. One day, you will be thinner than all of them. Forget 'on the par'.
And hey. Happy Mommy's Day! ...you will one day Mother our adoptive children.
or Father them.
Either way. <3
Gosh. When I'm with my family, it's like I suddenly have no self-control. mostly because I'm the thinnest one of them all so I can just eat and eat and eat and NOBODY WILL SAY ANYTHING. Sometimes, my Dad will make a comment about how bloated I am 'from the sugar' but that's just about it. It's a teasing comment that doesn't even get to me. Whaaaaaat?
also, you'll look better than her me thinks. ;o 108 is the goal, eh? you're nearly halfway there! doesn't that mean anything to you, babe? <3
Love x courage,
Blaine.
hey,
ReplyDeleteI've just started reading and following your blog and just wanted to introduce myself.
Good luck on your weight loss journey, I hope you find happiness.
Much lovexxx
We dont have mothersday until next sunday :|
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You'll be thinner than them if you keep going don't panic!! :) I always compare myself too, everyone seems more attractive than me, it's fucking depressing! But one day we'll be those girls everyone stares at :) xx
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