Failure.
Yep, as hard as it is for me to look at that ugly word, it speaks volumes of truth.
I can sit here and make as many excuses as I want.
"It was emotional eating because I have been stressed."
"I was so hungry because I have been starving myself."
"I have been on my period."
I COULD make excuses, but that seems petty and unnecessary.
So I will not do that.
Instead, I will do the mature thing.
Accept that I have made a mistake that can be rectified, and move on.
Because, honestly, I have noticed something.
Food gives me NO happiness.
None whatsoever.
I look at food now, and I feel nothing.
None of the comfort that food used to give me when I was 30 pounds heavier remains.
Eating is not enjoyable, not an act that evokes pleasure like it used to, so many times before.
Each bite is forced, because I truly do not have the want to eat anymore.
I feel so much happier when I do not eat.
I know that is not necessarily a good thing, but that is how my mind has transformed.
I am on a self-imposed fast of sorts, because one, I feel I need to begin rectifying my loss of control.
Two, I just do not want food.
At all.
And it feels good, actually.
Mind over matter, right?
I think I may have conquered this, or at least, started to.
And that is what I have been striving for all along.
I hope the rest of you are doing well and feeling as good as I am. :)
Best of luck to all of you!
I remember how i felt when i first let go of the emotional hold food had over me, free. So happy youve found that now too. Much love and be strong. Jxxx
ReplyDeleteI love that you have turned the neg into a pos :) It's beautiful. Keep staying strong and moving on. Love the blog. -nothingiseverything
ReplyDeleteI'm replying to your comment on my blog, on here! :) I think that is truly sweet that you strive to make others feel happy, it shows what a pure, good person you are. I love what you said about a compliment having drastically positive outcomes, it's so true. Your compliments about my blog made me smile and made my day much much better. You can't imagine how amazing you made me feel. Thank you. :) You are an inspiration to me, your posts are clear, full of honesty, positivity, and understanding. Your control over your mind and body is amazing and motivating. I can tell you are a very friendly, nice, charismatic person and your friends and family are extremely lucky to have you in their lives. Thank you, for being yourself. :)
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