I hope you are all having a wonderful day so far.
I just weighed myself, and I am incredibly confused.
148.8?!
Say what, now?
What am I doing wrong? :\
Why am I GAINING weight?
I have been doing so well, eating less and exercising more, not eating junk food, not drinking soda.
Part of me thinks I should just abandon the scale entirely for a while.
Keep doing what I am doing, but do not weigh obsessively.
Keep alert for changes in my body, instead of going by the number on the scale.
It is going to be so hard to do, because for so long, my days have been dictated by the number that pops up on that scale each morning.
Eventually, I am hoping that I will find the right combination of intake and exercise that will finally allow this weight to steadily drop off of me.
God knows, I deserve it!
I have been working so hard, and to keep seeing myself GAIN?
Talk about depressing.
Sigh.
I want to go do something today.
I want to go buy myself a book, watch a movie, go shopping, something.
But then, that would feel like a reward.
Which I partially feel like I do not deserve, since all I have been doing is gaining weight, not losing it.
I hate this.
I want to break the cycle so badly.
I am not giving up.
But I cannot help but wonder if I am going to be in this exact same situation 12 weeks from now when I move back to university.
I guess only time and hard work will tell.
Have a fantastic day, lovelies.
Hang in there and stay strong! <3
**EDIT 5:26 pm** Ahem. I am never eating again. At least, I am never eating out again. We went to Texas Roadhouse for lunch and I have THE worst heartburn ever. This is awful. I realize now why I only eat healthy foods these days. As if that were not bad enough, we had to get a birthday present for my cousin and we went to freaking Hollister. I could fit one arm in their large tops. Nothing XL in the entire store. Only an anorexic girl or a teenybopper could fit into that stuff and pull it off. Oh, the irony. :\
I will try my hardest to break the cycle...I am stronger than it is. <3
Why don't you go buy an exercise DVD or something like that. Maybe a new workout would help you lose weight. You can do it. Stay strong.
ReplyDeleteJust keep working hard! Eventually the scale will show your weight loss!
ReplyDeleteI also have a problem with weighing myself WAY to much.(I also hate my fucking scale right now because i gained 3 pounds. Stupid scale. Trader)
ReplyDeleteI'm changing it to once a week; no exceptions.
Along with putting a piece of paper on the wall close to my scale, and every week when i weigh myself im just going to put how much i am, and see if i am making any progress.
And i believe you can do it! Crossing my fingers for you, love.
Yeah, if you leave the scale alone for a week or two I expect when you revisit you'll be pleasantly surprised. Bodies do fluctuate weight weirdly sometimes, but if you're working hard you will see results :)
ReplyDeleteStay strong !
I'm sure it's just water-weight :)
ReplyDeleteMaybe I wasn't paying proper attention but how many calories do you average a day? Try switching it up day to day, I do it sometimes for quick appeasing results. It doesn't always work but give it a shot if you've never tried it. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteif you starve yourself you just GAIN weight.
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